March 27/12

Evening All...
   How are you all doing this evening? I and the family are well, thanks for asking! I find that my blogs are getting farther spaced apart with work playing a big factor in that. All last week and leading into this week, I have been uber-busy with work. Spending anywhere from 6-22hrs on a  location at any given time. Man, this month has flown by for me. So how is all of this treating me mentally? Specifically, how have I been doing? Well, suprisingly, fairly good. We are still house hunting and haven't found that home yet that we really want to be in. Actually, I should correct myself. We have found that home, we haven't found the mortgage that we are willing to pay yet. Work has been going good as I said. I have been busy which is good, but is also a bit of a hinderance for me. I find that when I get over tired or rundown; my emotions are a little out of whack. Not that I am the only one, but of course, I am only speaking from my experiences!
   I believe that I mentioned last week that a very close family friend had her fiance pass away in a car accident. That was a difficult week here in the Metcalfe household. Mostly for my wife as this is her best friend that this happened to. I was trying my best to support Krystle and her emotions while dealing with this. We were unable to go to the funeral as it was about 4hrs away from here. It would have been quite difficult for us to pull the kids out of school, me get time off of work and Krystle cancel out on her babysitting. Of course, it wasn't actually difficult, just some bad timing. But when is passing away ever good timing? Its not something we can plan for.
   Dealing with our friends loss, was a little difficult for me because it brought back into perspective my fear of losing someone close to me and how I will deal with it when the time finally comes. I also felt and feel very terrible for my wife's friend. She is a great woman and I have a lot of love for her(strictly plutonic). We also have another friend who's little guy, I think he is 16 months old or so, got very sick. He had to be rushed from Tumbler Ridge to Grande Prairie via STARS air ambulance. He ended up having some pneumonia and asthma. His blood cells were not holding enough oxygen, so he ended up having a blood transfusion. Sooooo, we had that on our plates as well (in a round about way) praying for him to get better and such. Thankfully he is better and back at home.
   BUT, so much raw emotion last week. So much pain and suffering, heartache and loss, ups and downs and me having to deal with an idiot out at a rig. How am I doing after all of this? Please don't get me wrong, I am not being selfish; just asking how my mental health is. As I said, I am suprisingly good. I think that alot of last week did not hit to, to close to home; but close enough. I don't have an answer for you as to how I coped through the last week. I think that alot of it has to do with how we are doing financially and job wise. Of course, I am not going to tell any of you how we are doing financially, I am just mentioning it. Let's just say that we eight zero's in our bank account. Okay, we don't. No lottery win here. lol. Anyways, I think that last year being what it was and this year being what it is, has played a HUGE part in how I have been feeling.
   As I have mentioned before, I am a ways away from feeling like 100%, but I am continuing on my way there. I take my medication every day without fail, I read up on mental health issues whenever I can, I try to get some exercise in and I enjoy my time with my wife and kids. I haven't been to one of my meetings in months. I am hoping to attend one tomorrow night, but we have a house viewing at 4pm and my meeting starts at 5pm. So we will have to see. I have also mentioned many times how very, very important my wife is to me in my recovery and daily routines. Without her, I think that I can honestly say that I do not know where I would be. I love you Krystle very much and I thank God for you everyday. So, I think that this evening I am going to leave you with this.
   Love your family everyday; tell them that you love them and how much they mean to you. Make sure that they know how much they mean to you. Make sure that you support each other and that you have people supporting you. Never take your friends and family for granted, you never know when they could pass in a car accident or have to rushed to the hospital in an air ambulance. As Garth says, "If Tomorrow Never Comes..."