Hello to All,
How are you all doing this evening? Watching the Grammy's? Baking cookies? Well, I hope that you are enjoying yourselves. I've been struggling a little bit the last two days with my anxiety. On Friday, I told you all that I had gotten an offer for an office job that would be in Calgary at my, well, office. I talked to one of my bosses today and I am to go down on Tuesday to meet with the other bosses and find out the scoop on what is what with this new position. I obviously won't know anything until Tuesday as far as what would be expected of me. And I also obviously have quite a few questions that I would like to ask regarding this position. So why has my anxiety gotten up so high?
I know exactly what is going on, I just can't seem to change my focus. Okay I said it. It is changes. Changes that would be for the better for me and my family. The thought of having to find a new family doctor, a new school for the kids, make new friends, find a new church, new grocery store, new home etc, really messes with my mind. Of course, if I was only to be in the office a few times a week and then back out in the field, all of this totally moot point. Then we would not have to move from RD and all of these changes would not be occuring. How do you control your thought processes and alleviate the anxiety from controlling your every thought?
I don't know if you can. I know that we all have different degrees of anxiety and different ways of battling it. As I said earlier, all of us deal with anxiety. Some are anxious to go to a doctor's appointment to find out some results. Some of us have written a book and are anxious to see how it will be recieved. Some of us have to get up in front of our co-workers and give a report. We all have to deal with anxiety, but to what level? How do you control your anxiety? I am very thankful that I have a very loving and caring wife. I cannot say enough good things about her. Yes, we argue sometimes. Yes, I make her mad or she me. Yes, I am a jackass sometimes. But she loves me and my anxiety all the more. I am very blessed to have her in my life.
So tonight, I am just wondering how you battle your anxieties. If you would like to comment after reading this, that would be cool. You don't have to tell anyone whether or not you have an anxiety disorder like I do. I am just wondering what it is that you do to relax yourselves. The things that I have talked about are not seeming to be working right now. And of course, I realize that my anxiety is pretty normal here. I realize that these changes, should they happen, make total sense in the world. I think that anxiety disorder or not, anyone would be anxious about these things. But having the anxiety disorder does not help to alleviate any of these thoughts. It just makes them more intense and uncontrollable. I would really appreciate your thoughts and prayers this evening and tomorrow evening as well.
Sorry that I am not writing anything awe inspiring here this evening. Obviously, my mind is in other places. Have a good evening and we will talk tomorrow night.
Hey Shawn, as I commmented on an earlier post, the fact I had to take a serious drug to control my psoriasis certainly caused some anxiety.
ReplyDeleteHow did I deal with it? Well, I researched as much as I could, found online forums where people commented on the drug and their experiences/side effects, etc. with it.
I also told all my family and close friends and co-workers about it, as it was something that affected me physically I felt I couldn't "hide" it from them, so might as well face it head on.
Not to say it is so easy for everyone to do, but perhaps a big part on anxiety is the worry what other people think of what you have to tell them.
I've never much cared for what other people think about me or what I have to say, I guess that's what gets me through my anxieties.
Take care and keep blogging; it's become a part of my daily routine to read your thoughts.
Thanks,
Stacey